Erin Go Bye Bye

To follow you up on my driver's test. I failed. To put it in a nutshell, I got nervous. Thankfully, I'll be getting another chance on the 25th. Hopefully, this time I'll pass.

I've decided to shut down this blog. I still plan on working on both my movie and my book--however, I'd rather spend less time blogging about myself and more time actually...working. In the past several months, I feel like so many options have opened up to me that the need to promote "Erin Scherer" (if you know what I mean) is no longer necessary.

Right now, I'm working on trying to sit down and focus on a project or two. I know what I want to do, it's just a matter of sitting down and doing it.

In the meantime, please visit granterinswish.com, and click on the Google advertisements!

Seeking Fiscal Sponsorship

So I've decided to submit a plan to the New York Foundation for the Arts for Fiscal Sponsorship. As part of this plan, should it go through and I be approved for sponsorship, would allow me to purchase a new computer, some programs to put on it (like Final Cut Pro), and some trips to LA and Greece. It's not due until May, so I don't have to rush too much.

Most of the computer budget is put together; it's just a matter of talking to a travel agent about potential packages and figuring out the cost for those. Then I'll ask NYFA what their average budget for the projects they approve for sponsorship, then take it from there.

Most of my focus this week, however, is to work on passing the driver's test, which I'm taking next Monday (February 4th).

Cocooning After Christmas

Well, I've slated to take off five days at Christmas. We're closed on the 25th, and I requested the 26th through the 29th off. And I have one goal: to get something written.

A script for the movie I want to shoot, hopefully. With my job, it's been hard to make a long term commitment to any project. To go from relative solitude to the chaos of working at a supermarket can be very jarring. Working front end register can be intensely stressful. Hopefully, I'll have my driver's license soon, and from there on out, things should be full speed ahead.

But I'm getting off track. I feel it's a little weird to be working on the script already. For too long, I've been trying to figure out where the money's going to come from, but right now I don't care. I have a feeling that once I have an idea for a movie, in place, the rest will fall into place. I'm actively thinking about the kind of things I want to write. I need to stop worrying about fitting into any mold, drop any pretension, and just WRITE. The audience will be there.

granterinswish.com NOW OPEN!

GrantErinsWish.com is now officially up and running. This is the fundraising campaign that will get me to SXSW. My campaign also has a MySpace page as well. While I will blog here intermittently, I will be tending to this for the next several weeks (and possibly months), as well as passing my driver's test.

I will resume blogging here full-time when my movie project goes into full force.

Drive to solve all your problems. Or something.

Before my first driving lesson yesterday, I went to the Warren Hunting Smith Library at Hobart & William Smith College. I printed out a list of academic criticisms (the kind you cite in graduate papers) for my book project.

There was no ephiphany. I have decided to wait until the time is right to continue with the research for the book. At this point, I'm confident that I'm going to finish the book eventually, but right now, the research might be more than I can handle. With that being said, I will be going back tomorrow to print out more articles, and I plan on reading the books I have already checked out. Then I will copy all the important information, then return the books and put my notes and copies away.

I'm a little frustrated right now. I'm sure I'm heading in a direction I want to head in, I just don't know if it's going to pay, that's all. I know that once I have my license, I am not going to stay with my parents. Besides, I don't like my job--it's distressing. While I'm not fatalistic about my options, I'm very frustrated about not being able to find a solution.

I asked Dad if I can drive to the library tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be doing that. I need to get comfortable with the idea of driving, and I need to learn how to incorporate it into my life. And maybe then I can reach a decision about the source of my income?

Just Breathe...and Drive

Today was my first driving lesson. I was very nervous when I got behind the wheel, but as the lesson progressed, I felt better. I just need to remember everything, that's all.

Now that I'm finally working on my driver's license, maybe It's time to set certain things aside. That's not a bad thing, just that those things might need more attention than I can give to it right now.

Earlier tonight, I saw a collection of films by Maya Deren, and I have to say that this is the first DVD I saw since I've started this blog that really got me thinking about what I want to create. Two of those movies in particular: Meshes of the Afternoon and At Land. The latter has some incredible, breathtaking locations shot on Long Island. The opening scene reminded me of the opening scene of something I've seen before. Hmm...

I have a lot to think about right now.